"Redeeming Ruth"

Just wanted to share the link to an amazing memoir written by my dear friend Meadow Rue Merrill. You will be blessed by this story about love, loss, and redemption. https://www.amazon.com/Redeeming-Ruth-Everything-Takes-Restores

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